by Emily Wierenga | Oct 21, 2013 | adoption, church, faith, fostering, grief, hope, infertility, loneliness, loss, miscarriage, mother, woman
You–who’s lost seven children in miscarriage; who dreams at night of being called Mother and who weeps over Fisher Price commercials.You–who’s been told her whole life that womanhood is synonymous with motherhood, who’s tried and cried... by Emily Wierenga | Mar 12, 2012 | family, father, fostering, grace, Jesus, love, mother
it’s more than singing these days. “Jesus” is something Joey says all of the time, now, like water, or bread, or Lego, like he’s learning a new word and he doesn’t want to forget it. but then there is everything else.like the fact that he... by Emily Wierenga | Mar 6, 2012 | children, chocolate, dancing, dying, fostering, heaven, hope, Jesus, parenting
tonight we found Jin in the bathtub after we’d put his pajamas and diaper on. trent and i just kind of looked at each other and then looked at the bathtub and then walked away.then we did rock-paper-scissors to see who had to change him, again.but there was this... by Emily Wierenga | Mar 4, 2012 | family, forgiveness, fostering, God, grace, husband, love, quitting
it’s easy to love someone when he lets you sleep in, rising with all four boys. when he makes you scrambled eggs with bacon, and coffee. it’s not so easy when he makes you cry. when he tells you he’s worried, he doesn’t think you can handle... by Emily Wierenga | Feb 23, 2012 | crying, fostering, hope, joy, kids, Lord, motherhood
i had to laugh, like a crazy lady, i laughed while they cried and the Joy of the Lord sang on the CD. it was one of those laugh-or-you’ll-cry times, and so we made a cacophony of sound that afternoon drive home, as sweet-voiced singers crooned “i’ve... by Emily Wierenga | Feb 20, 2012 | children, desert, fostering, God, mothers, prayer, song, st. francis
“it will get harder,” i heard, bending over the rails of the crib, the crucified stance of the mother who feeds life in the dead of night. but i shook my head. it couldn’t. it was hard enough. and then, “there will be victory,” even as my...