by Emily Wierenga | Nov 23, 2012 | abandonment, black friday, cross, crucifixion, doubt, God, Jesus, love, prayer
kasher, when he was 3 months old, in a corn field.black friday happened last week for me. it happened on the bed in the office, on the patchwork quilt that my friend stitched for me. it happened in the rumpled form of a writer who was twisted up and crying out to a... by Emily Wierenga | Nov 16, 2012 | childhood, cutting, eating disorders, food, foster children, God, gospel, guilt, healing, heaven, love, medication, mental illness, motherhood, pain, purging, sadness, saving, sorrow
(before watching video, scroll down and pause music player on right-hand side of blog…)it’s been a bloody kind of week.you know, the kind that seeps all red onto pillows from little boys’ noses after they’ve hurt themselves on purpose because... by Emily Wierenga | Nov 12, 2012 | a deeper family, bon jovi, dating, God, hope, husband, love, marriage, relationship, romance, wife
It’s not that you’re not in love, it’s just that love becomes so ordinary, like peanut butter and jam on toast for breakfast, every single day, when sometimes you need Eggos with blueberry syrup. Or a walk in the autumn leaves without children underfoot. Just you, and... by Emily Wierenga | Nov 6, 2012 | (in)courage, book club, children, devotional diva, eating disorders, evil, fear, God, good, homeschooling, love, mother, motherhood, pastor's daughter, prayers, she loves magazine
we’re five on a couch, eating cookies. my husband will not be pleased. i will have to vacuum, yet again. (i vacuum constantly.) but food is one thing i try not to have many rules about. it makes me happy just to see my children eat.because once upon a time, i... by Emily Wierenga | Nov 5, 2012 | (in)courage, bloom, book giveaway, book review, book study, chasing silhouettes, dayspring, eating disorders, fall recommended read, love, self-love, she loves, womanhood
…we’re in bed, and my husband leans in, and i ask him to tell me, just one more time. “but why?” he says, this farm-boy that walked me through my relapse when i was 23. “don’t you know it by now?” he says.i shake my head. “tell me again,” i say.“i love... by Emily Wierenga | Oct 15, 2012 | beauty, children, girl, grace, husband, kindness, love, marriage, mirror, motherhood, self-love, sin, wine, womanhood
the other night we had pudding. or rather, it had us, all covered and sticky and delicious, and we wondered about insisting on spoons. but then we remembered that sometimes grace feels like fingers covered in dessert.and i’m learning this for myself, as a...